tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70400604551890656962024-03-08T13:40:43.834-06:00i live it, i write it.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-46160663632619613702014-01-14T23:45:00.002-06:002014-01-16T17:29:30.612-06:00Our Fault Requires Our ActionOklahoma is a great place to live. When my family moved to Ardmore in 1994, we had no idea the amount of valuable friends and family we would gain over the last 20 years. In fact, it was 20 years this month that we started our new Damon family adventure in Oklahoma. I spent many of my formative years in Oklahoma. And while Minnesota will always be my home state, I'm proud to be part Okie. <br />
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However, Oklahoma is also a very dangerous place to live for countless children. In fact, this last summer, we had over 10,600 children in out-of-home care through OKDHS. (You can find these statistics published on the www.okdhs.org website.) And the number increases every day. Those 10,600 children are children that have REPORTED cases of child abuse and/or neglect as of June 2013. (Those are the children that we actually know about. We have no idea how many are still in dangerous homes.)<br />
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This is shocking considering 88% of the 359 Oklahoma cities have less than 10,000 people TOTAL. LESS than the total number of children in out-of-home care.<br />
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The 2012 US Census Bureau's recorded number of Oklahomans under the age of 18 was 922,832, (24.6% of total Oklahoma population). That means that the report from OKDHS in June 2013 denotes that 9.78% of Oklahoma children are in OKDHS Child Welfare custody, (in out-of-home care).<br />
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Compare those numbers to a much more populated state like New York. In 2012, New York Office of Child and Family Services reported a DECREASE in "In Care Population Permanency" to 20,450. (That included children 0-21 years of age.) In 2012, the US Census Bureau reported a total of 4,267,595 (21.8% of total population) children under the age of 18 years old. That means that less than 0.5% of New York children are in NY OCFS custody. <br />
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How can a state that is so small, has thousands of churches, and considers itself to be a family-oriented state have such a horrendous problem with child abuse and neglect?<br />
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It makes me sick, fellow Okies. And I blame us for the problem. I have a theory how this happened. Granted, sin is the real cause for child abuse and neglect. But we human beings are the perpetrators of this sin. After all, if we aren't a part of the solution, aren't we part of the problem? <br />
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My theory is that when churches don't get involved in caring for their neighbors and therefore allowing ourselves to hide in our nice homes and pretty new church buildings, we get caught up in keeping up appearances. So, we are less likely to share when life gets really challenging and more likely to take up harmful ways of coping with the pain and stress. That's why as a Child Welfare caseworker, most of my permanency planning cases involved substance abuse and/or domestic violence. <br />
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I posit that if people that believe in and follow Christ were to support each other when life is tough, let each other in and be honest about the pain and fear, and then take steps with each other to survive it, we would not see as many children in out-of-home care. Less people would feel the need to choose drugs or a dangerous significant other in order to cope with life. <br />
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Had I not had a supportive family and a church that rallied around me at some dark times, I may have been part of this statistic. It's tempting to run away from pain. <br />
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That's how we ended up with with over 10,600 kids in custody as of June 2013. This week I saw some of the pain in the lives of the biological parents I have worked with and the children currently living in a shelter. One mother has had an extremely difficult time walking away from the abusive father of her children. Her children have returned to foster care and she became so desperate that she attempted suicide. <br />
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Teenagers at the shelter, no matter how hard they work, have little to no hope of ever being in a foster home let alone adopted by the time they turn 18. Think about yourself at age 18: about to graduate high school, planning for college or a career, maybe even starting a family with your new husband or wife. <br />
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Who helped you to study for your SAT or ACT? Who encouraged you to apply for college? Who took to you to tour college campus and move in once you were accepted? Who did you call when you were terrified of your first midterm or final exams? Who helped coach you when preparing to interview for jobs? Who helped you get copies of all your vital records so that you can even apply for jobs? <br />
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Ladies, who walked you down the isle when you got married? Who did you call when you got pregnant or had a miscarriage? Who did you call when you had your first big fight as a newlywed? <br />
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Oklahoma is suffering. The impact of our lack of action to help one another is profound. Judge OKDHS all you want. "The system" is not perfect. But if you aren't part of the solution, you are part of the problem. In Mark 2, friends of a paralytic man actually took the roof off of a house so that their friend could get closer to Jesus and be healed. Do you know anyone that would do that for you? Would you do that for someone else?<br />
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1 Corinthians 10:24 - "Let no one seek his own good, but that of his neighbor."<br />
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Mark 12:30-32 - Jesus talks about the greatest commandments: Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind, strength. The second is to love your neighbor as yourself.<br />
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Friends, this is as much a calling on me as anyone else. So, I am burdened to do what I can to help. Please pray that God shows you what to do next. What roof does He want you to tear up so that your neighbor can be healed?<br />
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<br />Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-38811861004176549202013-01-31T23:06:00.003-06:002013-01-31T23:06:54.184-06:00anger can be holyi'm angry. really angry actually. <br />
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i'm angry that every day there are children beaten by their parents. <br />
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i'm angry that every day there are parents who rape their children or let others perpetrate on their children.<br />
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i'm angry that every day there are parents who choose drugs over their children.<br />
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i'm angry that every day there are foster parents that choose to abuse/neglect already abused/neglected children.<br />
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i'm angry that every day children find themselves starving and barely surviving.<br />
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i'm angry that the effects of this evil lasts a lifetime.<br />
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i'm angry that the effects of this evil can not only ruin the lives of the abused but often has severe effects on any children abuse survivors will have someday.<br />
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i'm angry that every day children get moved from shelter to foster home and back so often that living on the streets sounds more attractive to them.<br />
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i'm angry that every day children are born addicted to drugs. <br />
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i'm angry that every day child welfare workers feel more and more like case managers rather than social workers. <br />
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but i'm most angry that not enough of us Christians are BROKEN about this. <br />
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why?<br />
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how in this day and age can we continue to turn a blind eye and let others handle the "problem" because "it takes a special kind of person" to be a foster parent, adoptive parent, shelter volunteer, case worker or even prayer warrior on behalf of these kids?<br />
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i didn't ask to be broken over this. but i am. <br />
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tonight i spent two hours trying to calm down two teenagers on my caseload. they live at the shelter for many different reasons. but it all boils down to several of the items on the list above. <br />
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and you know what they said over and over again? "i just want to go home!" and "i just want <i><u>A</u></i> home!"<br />
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and the most incredible thing about all of this is that adoption and foster care are the most clear pictures of what God has done for us:<br />
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<i>God has taken us in to His family; no matter what our history is, where we've been and what kind of crap we carry around with us and can't seem to shake. He loves us even though we feel loyal to people and things that abused and damaged us. He nurses us back to health when we are severely (spiritually) malnurished. He forgives us and takes us back every time we go AWOL. He never ever gives up on us even when we try to push Him away. We can yell and scream and blame Him for our pain. But He never stops loving us. </i><br />
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so, how in the world are so many kids waiting to "just go home" when we Christians know best what it's like to be adopted?<br />
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yes. i'm angry. but it's the kind that comes from a God-given burden.<br />
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i pray that God breaks the hearts of His children over the abused and neglected children of the world. i pray that He WRECKS each one of us over this. and i also pray that we will support each other as each one of us takes the steps to do our part in the healing of families and children.<br />
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one way to do this in tulsa is to participate in Fight Night Tulsa:<br />
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Tuesday February 19, 2013 @ 7 pm. <br />
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it will be at liberty church: 7777 s. garnett rd, broken arrow, ok.<br />
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watch the video promo here: <a href="https://vimeo.com/58337963">Fight Night: Tulsa</a><br />
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prayer is free and when done collectively has more power. i hope to see you there.<br />
<br />Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-36953997110155644602012-03-10T17:51:00.046-06:002012-04-06T18:38:02.101-05:00we love you. we're just not IN love with you.okay, so maybe it isn't those exact words. but that's the general idea when you're turned down for a job. when the dreadful email shows up in your inbox, you read the same sentiment of rejection: "thank you for expressing interest. and while you have many valuable qualities, we have decided to move forward with other candidates."<br />
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i know i'm not the only person who's experienced this. it's really tough out there! <br />
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you put your time, money and emotions into finding the right job...or even ANY job these days. when you find one that responds positively to your resume and application, it gets exciting. your level of hope rises. you start imagining your self in that position. it may mean a new city, new place to live or a chance to pay some things off. <br />
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when you read those words, (or even hear them if the employer is old school), you may feel like you've been dumped. as if the employer is saying, "you're a great person. and i've enjoyed our time together. but it's just not going to work out. i'm really sorry. but i'm sure you'll find someone else that is better suited for you."<br />
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it's brutal out there. if you have a job, be thankful. you see, someone else will always be willing to take your job if you don't want it. make sure you work hard to keep it. <br />
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but if you don't want to stay there, it will take an enormous amount of resolve to survive the job hunt. God is fully aware of what you need. it's incredible that He is so familiar with us. but that doesn't change the disappointment you can expect at least a few times before He presents the right job. <br />
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dealing with the rejection is pretty hard. i myself am bruised and recovering from two big disappointments. therefore, i know that the healing is slow. but i'm certain it comes eventually. <br />
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dear friends, now is not the time to doubt our Creator and His faithfulness. (i have to remind myself of this all day, every day.) it's the confidence in our Savior that keeps me going. my circumstances have not changed. in fact, they seem worse. but, somewhere, DEEP down inside, the Holy Spirits still urges me to persevere. <br />
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so, persevere with me. we will someday overcome all and our occupations will not matter. whether we can pay our bills will not matter. whether or not we marry and have children will not matter. and we'll be face-to-face with the only One that matters. someday, dear friends, someday.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-61095254198205298932012-01-19T10:58:00.000-06:002012-01-19T10:58:32.763-06:00Proverbs 13:12hope deferred makes the heart sick,<br />
but desire fulfilled is a tree of life.<br />
proverbs 13:12<br />
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i love this verse. i know the book of proverbs is known for its quips of wisdom. line after line, it plainly states truth about the human nature and admonishes real fulfillment. <br />
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it calls out the dangers of a naive/foolish heart while also pointing out the source of real joy. when discouraged, this book offers peace. when joyful, it reminds one why they have joy. it's powerful in its bits of poetic verse.<br />
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over and over again, it references the danger of deep sadness (i call this depression) and the tole it takes. (prov 15:13, 14:13) i love this because of its honesty. "Hope deferred makes the heart sick..." (prov 13:12a)<br />
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but then offers, "but desire fulfilled is a tree of life." (prov 13:12b) This portion reminds me of psalm 37:3-6:<br />
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trust in the Lord and do good;<br />
dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.<br />
delight yourself in the Lord<br />
and He will give you the desires of your heart.<br />
commit your way to the Lord,<br />
trust also in Him, and He will do it.<br />
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light<br />
and your judgment as the noonday.<br />
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i've had hope deferred for lengthy periods of time. it is heartbreaking and it felt like i had a broken spirit (prov 15:13). and often times, as the time drags on, i loose sight of what i really desire. was i thankful for what God had supplied for me? definitely. but was i joyful and excited about life? no. sometimes i was merely in survival mode; just pushing through each day. <br />
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and then God surprises me with a gift. something i hadn't considered or it never occurred to me to request of Him. that is the "tree of life" in verse 12. like the spring each year, life begins to bloom! <br />
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the word "hope" is mentioned in my NAS bible 146 times. in the NT, it is a hope based on Christ. that if we have hope in anything, its surely Him. <br />
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as a follower of Christ, i never lost hope in the salvation of Christ or that someday i'd be with God in heaven. that foundation is not shaken. but somehow, it's so easy to be convinced that God doesn't love us a much as other people or that we don't deserve good things. but He promised His love for us while we remain on earth. <br />
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the Lord your God is in your midst,<br />
a victorious warrior.<br />
He will exult over you with joy,<br />
He will be quite in His love,<br />
He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy.<br />
(zeph 3:17)<br />
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so, how then can anyone think they are exempt from His tremendous love? <br />
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when life is taxing, dark and depressing for lengthy periods of time, we can lose the hope for a fulfilling future. sometimes this is a physiological issue. and sometimes its the result of a painful time in person's life. either way, i know it's temporary. <br />
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...His favor is for a lifetime.<br />
weeping may last for the night,<br />
but a shout of joy comes in the morning.<br />
(psalm 30:5)<br />
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for any of you that a hurting, may i remind you that it's temporary? hope that is deferred will return when God presents to you your own tree of life. we must keep encouraging each other.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-13534865864613624652011-12-30T22:26:00.000-06:002011-12-30T22:26:12.821-06:002011: the year of the nomadit's been over seven months since my last post. most of it has to do with lack of inspiration. but as another year comes to a close, i'm finally inspired. <br />
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the past few weeks have been confusing and challenging...just as the entirety of 2011. it's normal for a person to reflect on the past year as a new one approaches. personally, i contemplate important events; how they affect me and my relationship with God. and i also think about how those events affected relationships with people i care about. <br />
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i believe the overwhelming theme for 2011 is one word: nomad. <br />
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dictionaries define <i>nomad</i> as:<br />
<div class="ds-list"><b>1. </b> A member of a group of people who have no fixed home and move according to the seasons from place to place in search of food, water, and grazing land.</div><div class="ds-list"><b>2. </b> A person with no fixed residence who roams about; a wanderer.</div><div class="ds-list"> </div><div class="ds-list">this definitely defines me. i say this with both humor and honesty. i lived in four different places this year. i was an independent contractor for three different employers and held one "steady" job at starbucks most of the year. the post office has probably lost track of me completely!</div><br />
<div class="ds-list">i've felt very disjointed and lost for so long. this wandering is exhausting. and humbling. anyone who knows me well knows that home-making is therapeutic and fun for me. therefor, not having a home of my own robs me of that joy. and taking work just to pay the bills, (barely making enough to do even that), is less than fulfilling. </div><div class="ds-list"><br />
</div><div class="ds-list">so, how do i recognize God's goodness and faithfulness in all this?</div><div class="ds-list"><div class="ds-list"><br />
</div><div class="ds-list">most of those moves were really painful and difficult. but i cannot make light of my friends, the Dores, who allowed me to take-over their guest room for two months. this was a real gift. and my parents have provided two rooms in their new home for me and my pesky cat, Shorty. also acting in loving generosity. </div> </div><div class="ds-list">and working in four different environments did something special, too. i met people in each situation that i will always regard as blessings in my life. even if working together was short-lived. </div><div class="ds-list"><br />
</div><div class="ds-list">i really want to put down roots somewhere. but i never counted on tulsa being that place. and, honestly, i still hope it isn't a long-term home for me. but saying yes to God is not conditional. that's not obedience. </div><div class="ds-list"><br />
</div><div class="ds-list">so with each move, either in employment or where i slept, i did my best to follow God's leading. some people disagreed with my choices. they just couldn't understand what i was doing. one of the hardest things was not putting my trust in them but God in all of it. it sounds a little trite, but i'm sure satan did his best to use those situations to try and ruin relationships with my spiritual family. </div><div class="ds-list"><br />
</div><div class="ds-list">what i've learned as a nomad is that i must follow Him and Him alone. even when loved ones believe they know what's best for me. job's friends thoroughly believed that his crappy new existence was the result of sin. and job asked God many, many questions. but God did not allow that pain and hardship into job's life because he was a worse sinner than others. no, God allowed job to endure for His glory. and then, by His grace, was restored.</div><div class="ds-list"> </div><div class="ds-list">it's been scarey and lonely. but i can also draw encouragement from the disciples. none of them had comfortable lifestyles after they met Jesus. completely the opposite. many of them spent the rest of their lives moving from place to place or in prison. yet, they finished their races with encouragement from other followers of Christ. and their lives are immortalized in the Bible forever giving hope to the rest of us.</div><div class="ds-list"><br />
</div><div class="ds-list">so i still wait EAGERLY for His restoration in my life. i really hope i'm on the brink of something wonderful; something that i can rejoice in. but until then, i know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that God is so good and faithful. He has never left me in any of this. </div><div class="ds-list"> </div><div class="ds-list">i love one of job's responses to Him, "I know that You can do all things and that no purpose of Yours can be thwarted." (42:2) and then confessed God's greatness and power with a spirit of repentance. i must hold tight to this; behave in that manner. </div><div class="ds-list"><br />
</div><div class="ds-list">yes, for me, 2011 is the year of the nomad. and what if that's the life He has in store for me always? until He takes me up to my real home with Him. until that day i know i'll always be discontent with what earth has to offer. my heart was created to desire Him. </div><div class="ds-list"><br />
</div><div class="ds-list">i suppose it's fitting that my last name, damon, is "nomad" spelled backwards. funny how that happened. </div>Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-89510603928712333492011-05-22T20:13:00.001-05:002011-05-22T20:17:10.107-05:003rd grade bucket listjust when i think i posses ALL of my childhood things after my parents have gotten tired of moving them...they find two more boxes for me. one box was my barbie dining table with reversible seat cushions, my remote controlled barbie rolls-royce convertible, fisher price cooktop w/ pots and pans, and our much used fisher price cash register.<br />
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the other box was full of report cards, old projects and baby books. it's funny how telling those items are of who we were to become later in life. one of my favorites was a post-it we found stuck to a my sister's essay. it gave instructions to my dad for where it was to be filed. many, many years later, my dad and sister work together and she's still telling him where to file things. <br />
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and then, as i paged through all those years of grades, homemade cards for my parents, and first essays, i found what appears to be my 3rd grade bucket list. here it is:<br />
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1. finish elementary school - done<br />
2. make lots of friends - can you ever have too many friends?<br />
3. go to jr. high and then to high school at park high - went to jr. high...but not high school at park<br />
4. graduate from high school - done<br />
5. go to college and then get a good career - did the college thing...not sure yet about "career"<br />
6. get married - that's still up to God<br />
7. have a family - (see number 6)<br />
8. make lots of money - now i say "enough to live on"<br />
9. live in a big house and had a swimming pool - we had a pool when i was in jr. high and high school<br />
10. own 2 rolls-royce convertibles - does my barbie one count?<br />
11. be famous - just not INfamous<br />
12. get great grades in school (from now to college) - i think i did pretty well<br />
13. own a speed boat - my uncle had one. that's where that came from<br />
14. be successful - depends on the definition<br />
15. meet the minnesota twins - not yet...RIP kirby pucket!<br />
16. go to paris, france - someday<br />
17. meet jerry seinfeld - saw him perform live<br />
18. find the cure for diabetes and alzheimers disease - not yet<br />
19. be a scientist - no, thank you.<br />
20. be valedictorian in high school - nope. my class was very competitive<br />
21. meet the president - i have a picture of me and a cardboard cut-out of president ronald reagan<br />
22. be tall - NOPE.<br />
23. invent something to make people invisible - still working on this<br />
24. be on TV - three times, actually<br />
25. go to australia - amazingly...YES!<br />
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it's funny how some desires from childhood have changed and some haven't. but either way, it is good to revisit old goals and aspirations when trying to figure out God's plan for your life. what i seek at this point in my life may be a bit foggy right now. but i know there are dreams deep down in my heart that started in childhood, waiting to reemerge and remind me who i am and how God has designed me.<br />
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but for now, i'm not sure that having TWO rolls-royce convertibles is necessary. i'll just settle for my remote-controlled version. it has great gas mileage and it's paid off.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-19128764019878574902011-03-13T23:21:00.001-05:002011-03-14T08:47:33.238-05:00what i learned in the sunshinei am a firm believer that sunshine makes a huge difference on a person's attitude and outlook. and since we fort worthians were blessed with such splendid weather this weekend, i knew i needed to take advantage of it. you see, darkness had set in on my heart and was weighing me down. but i knew two things for sure: the sunshine would do me good and spending time dwelling on God's promises would lift that fog and renew my spirit.<br />
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so, what passage did i decide to dwell on? a friend read psalm 18 out loud me this weekend. and, (since i can't avoid this cliche), it spoke to me. i believe God had a plan when He put that passage on her heart that day. here's what i learned while drinking in the peacefulness of the outdoors and warmth from the sun.<br />
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<i><b>psalm 18 </b></i><br />
(in my own words)...<br />
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<b><u>God is...</u></b><br />
my strength<br />
my rock<br />
my fortress<br />
my deliverer<br />
my God<br />
my shield<br />
my salvation<br />
my stronghold<br />
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<u><b>What He does for me...</b></u><br />
save me from my enemies (and the lies satan tells me)<br />
hears me when i cry<br />
pays attention to me when i call for Him<br />
defends with great fury and power <i></i><br />
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<i>(shakes the earth in His anger toward my enemies </i><br />
<i>smoke & fire flow from Him in wrath toward those who do harm</i><br />
<i>calls the heavens to thunder, bringing hailstones and fire to battle</i><br />
<i>sets lighting flashing</i><br />
<i>commands channels of water to appear</i><br />
<i>lays the foundations of the world bare in His rebuke toward my enemies)</i><br />
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pulls me out of deep waters, over and over again<br />
rescues me<br />
He is my stay, my stronghold<br />
brings me into an open space...to gain perspective and clear my head<br />
delights in me (astonishing)<br />
rewards me for my righteousness (not said to be proud...just a promise He makes to all of His children)<br />
shows kindness<br />
lights up the darkness around me<br />
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<u><b>because of Him, i can...</b></u><br />
storm the armies that fight against me<br />
leap over walls (conquering life's challenges)<br />
have strength to fight <br />
keep from sin<br />
climb high places (for times of great joy and celebration)<br />
train for battle (be prepared for the next challenge that comes along...the next time i'm tempted)<br />
be saved<br />
be great (great in His eyes...not the world's)<br />
be sure-footed, trusting that He has outlined my path<br />
face my enemies without fear<br />
pursue my enemies (face my sin and weakness head-on and conquer it)<br />
defeat my sin<br />
lead others <br />
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<u><b>my God...</b></u><br />
subdues the evil ones<br />
does not rescue my enemies<br />
LIVES<br />
avenges evil done to me (and to all His children)<br />
gives great deliverance<br />
shows lovingkindness<br />
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i needed those words from Him. and i needed that time in solitude and quiet to hear it from Him. maybe someone else out there needs it too. if they do, i hope this reaches them and that they are as encouraged as i am.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-10101990555461958392011-02-09T23:51:00.000-06:002011-02-09T23:51:02.960-06:00cooking, comedy, & campthis is my ode to community. (not the show...but the wonderful people i consider friends.)<br />
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to the people of my world that write sweet messages on my facebook wall,<br />
to those that text a quick inside joke out of the blue,<br />
to you that call in the afternoon to tell me they're cooking and i can come over and eat for free...<br />
i wouldn't know thougtfulness as well without you.<br />
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to the people of my world preface admissions with, "i can't believe i'm actually saying this out loud..."<br />
to those that blog their personal lives,<br />
to you that let me see their tears...<br />
i wouldn't know honesty as well without you.<br />
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to the people of my world that make funny noises in the background when i'm trying to record my outgoing voicemail recording,<br />
to those that tell me stories of how they wet their pants in front of their new boyfriends,<br />
to you that practice "tangentry"...<br />
i wouldn't know laughter as well without you.<br />
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to the people of my world that ask me the hard questions,<br />
to those that speak the words of Christ into my life when i'm feeling sorry for myself,<br />
to you that work tirelessly so that youth camp is a setting where kids can know Jesus better...<br />
i wouldn't know the Lord as well without you.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-83412723872734607422010-11-16T19:52:00.000-06:002010-11-16T19:52:39.023-06:00pride & prejudiceso, i'm feeling convicted about my last post. i fear that i came across bitter. and i need to repent of that. i had the best of intentions and i was simply expressing what i was feeling. assuredly, i am by no means the wisest person about relationships. <br />
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i was talking with a friend today about God's plan for our lives and how we often don't understand the where's and the why's of our circumstances. as we talked, i had a revelation. <br />
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have you seen the newest version of "pride & prejudice?" it's a visually stunning movie and, following the typical jane austen distinctive, wildly romantic. it's a movie that i can put on the tv and take a nap to; because i can wake up at any point and know exactly what i missed and what happens next. i guess that means i've seen it quite a few times...<br />
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in this fantastic film, the heroine elizabeth bennet, (aka: lizzy), speaks with her father about her relationship with mr. darcy. (obligatory big ::SIGH:: here...) women just LOVE that mr. darcy... <br />
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mr. bennet is quite aghast at the idea of his lizzy falling for this seemingly less-than-amiable mr. darcy. but concedes that if she truly cares for him, he will allow the marriage. and she in a moment of excitement and elation explains, "...you see, papa, we are so similar..." and she confesses her true love for dear mr. darcy. <br />
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here's where i'm going with this: my quams about singleness and how we relate to each other are actually quite similar to many other folks in different areas of life. <br />
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for instance, i have several friends that had literally JUST finished opening wedding gifts or receiving congratulations after the ceremony when someone asks, "so when are you having kids?" there's often a stutter of something like, "um...well, we, um...aren't ready for that yet..." from the newlyweds. (and you can't get much more "newly" than that!) <br />
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those folks are experiencing what i wrote about in the previous post. the world has an idea of how things should go. and sometimes people don't know how to react to those that don't seem to track with the archetypal life. and what if a couple is trying to get pregnant but cannot? it can be very painful.<br />
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the same thing goes for people like my friends, the Dunbars, who are missionaries to Bogota, Columbia. it's hard for people to understand leaving their comfortable, descent paying jobs in The States to live in a dangerous part of the world. <br />
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or folks like my grandparents, who at age 40 and with 4 daughters, sold their dairy farm so that my grandpa could go to Bible school and then on to seminary. <br />
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it looks weird the world...even to those who love and know us best. <br />
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like i mentioned before, God works creatively in each of our lives. it's often hard to explain why we make certain decisions or where we are in life. sometimes it's by our choice...and sometimes it's not. but the bottom line is:<br />
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we are really quite similar. <br />
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and if we could offer a little more sensitivity to each other and a lot more license to God to do what He will in our lives, i believe we could eliminate some pain or frustration inflicted upon each other.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-35450438250362474792010-10-23T15:27:00.000-05:002010-10-23T15:27:56.892-05:00formulaic fictioni dug out a journal from 2006-2007 last week. in it were several journal entries and some notes from Passion 2007. one particular entry caught my attention: God's design for singleness. ben stuart of Breakaway Ministries in college station was the speaker. i remember his january 3rd talk pretty well. he's a gifted speaker, passionate about teaching and encouraging the people around him for God's glory. it was my first time to hear him speak in person. and the topic he was speaking of interested me. <br />
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so i came to the ballroom, found a spot on the movie-theater style carpet, opened my new journal and clicked my pilot G2 pen into "ready" mode. he was introduced, we clapped to welcome him and along with the college students waited in anticipation to hear what light he could shed on being single and dating. <br />
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looking back now, i notice a few things about that break-out session:<br />
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1. the large amount of students in that ballroom.<br />
2. i was there with students at least 4 - 6 years younger than me.<br />
3. we were taking advice from someone that is married.<br />
4. his message presented a formula for godly singleness.<br />
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now, hear me when i say that i believe ben was there presenting what he believed God wanted him to share. i don't necessarily disagree with what he shared. and i am sure that he did it with the best of intentions. that being said, i want to explain my observations.<br />
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first, although the ballroom was huge and all the accordian partitions were pulled wide open, the room was overflowing with people! perhaps some of that session's popularity was due to ben's popularity. he is well-known as a great, godly speaker and teacher. so, some may have been there to see him in person.<br />
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however, i think the majority of attendees were there because of the topic. and so i ask: why is that? have we become a desperate group of young adults, clinging to any scrap of help we can get in the arena of singleness and dating? <br />
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out of curiosity, i looked up dating books on amazon.com. i found over 12,000 books on dating. and over 2,700 books that speak just to Christians about dating. that alone tells me, YES, indeed we are hungry for direction in that area. i know i've been fascinated by this topic for a long time. and apparently, i'm not alone.<br />
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secondly, there i was, several years older than those college students, (his intended audience), and i still hadn't mastered singleness. perhaps few really do. but it still stands out to me that i had not grown or learned much between college and finishing grad school when i comes to this topic. i have had almost 30 years of experience with it with 24 years of it as a Christian. and i'm also not alone in this. <br />
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there are hundreds upon hundreds of singles ministries across this country. they are full of folks like me. we didn't get married in or after college. so churches put us in a designated stage and hope we'll figure it out and then come back to them after we get married. but, alas, their strategy isn't fool-proof. to be fair, if we don't know what to do, how can our church? especially if most of our older generations can't identify with our longevity of singleness. but that's another topic...<br />
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Third, God has no doubt placed fantastic married couples in my life. i adore them and there would be a huge, gaping hole in my life without them. and bless-their-hearts, they mean well. but, oh boy, there should be a limit to the amount of times a person must hear certain phrases: "it'll happen when you least expect it!" "he/she just isn't ready for you yet." "i don't know how you're still single." or the round-about ways folks try to figure out if your doing something wrong. because, after all, it seemed much easier for them! <br />
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we sit under the teachings of other married folks, like ben stuart, hoping that they will share something magical that will make us ready, in the right place and the right time to meet "the one." but often times, those folks are so removed from when they were single, they have lost touch with the sensitivity of it. and their loving spirits want to help, to encourage us. and honestly, i have to watch my heart so that i don't become skeptical of their advice. <br />
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i remember a pretty funny experience with my grandma in minnesota. she is so loving and sweet. i know that her hopes and prayers for me are totally heartfelt. one summer, we came up to take her to lunch. she still livs in the city in which my dad spent his adolescent years. we ended up taking a virtual walk down memory lane. all the way back to the day my mom met my grandma. my dad had already proposed at that point. we laughed about the surprise of this announcement and how quickly God moved them toward marriage. then she asked me if i was seeing a special guy. <br />
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i replied, "well, grandma, i SEE guys all the time. they're everywhere!" she didn't think it was as funny as my parents did. so, she blurts out something that still makes me giggle, "i'm serious! i'm your grandma and i want to know!" we were laughing so hard that i was in tears. classic grandma damon. but her reaction is not unlike those of other married folks. it's hard to understand folks who don't get married as young as they used to.<br />
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lastly, i never was much for mathematics. it is the area in which i am least proficient. so, when people try to reduce God's divine plan for our lives to some sort of formula, it bugs me. at first i was attracted to that line of teaching because i am a problem solver. but now, i don't see how God has to fit into our man-made formulas. i have lived enough to know that we cannot know what today will bring. <br />
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proverbs 19:21 says, "many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails." (NIV) and proverbs 16:9, "in his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." (NIV)<br />
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you see, i know planning and organization are of the Lord. but we cannot manipulate God. He has a perfect will for us. so then, how can we just take "3 steps to surviving singleness"? did Christ present any formula beyond believe in Him and receive the Holy Spirit? i know we want direction. but like other areas in life, man-made formulas for navigating life without a spouse aren't universal. <br />
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for instance, i have been in a position to look for jobs many, many times. and i know that there are countless strategies for it. one person may offer one kind of advice. and another person could refute it and offer something different. but i am convinced that our best attempts to control our circumstances can and will be thwarted at any time. <br />
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so, here i am. i cannot be so mindful of the advice of others that i barely hear what God has to say about it. that goes for looking for work, missions, how to lead my specific village, and how to love others. formulas don't work well for me. i appreciate and will often create plans for living. however, God is in control and He prefers to be creative in our lives. i will not shy away from His fantastic creativity...even when it breaks my heart. He is God. I am not. Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-12851832561441727222010-09-18T19:34:00.001-05:002010-10-02T11:20:04.360-05:00caffeinated memoriesoh, coffee shops, how i love you. i could count the many reasons...but my favorite is that it's where many of my most memorable moments have taken place. for some reason, over a steamy, (or icey), cup of deliciousness people share life on a deeper level. <br />
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when i moved to texas, i began frequenting one particular Starbucks that has longer hours. and for the past 7 years, i've had many remarkable conversations here. in fact, i can look at individual tables around the space, scan through my rolodex of memories, and call to mind certain situations that influence who i am today.<br />
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as i sit here now, at one of my favorite tables, (near an outlet of course), i see one table where i was first inspired to write about relationships. in anger and frustration, i sat there pounding away at the keys of my laptop as if the heavier pressure would convey my tone more clearly to the readers...<br />
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or another table where i sat with tears in my eyes sharing my first experience with unemployment with who would become my roommate. i love the various tables where i labored for days working on book reports and class projects for grad school. they remind me of God's provision during four tough yet wonderful years.<br />
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then there's the table where i composed a 60th wedding anniversary video for my grandparents. i remember sitting there with eyes about to burst with huge droplets while wondering at how God had blessed our whole family with their faithfulness. <br />
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there's another table where a man i hoped i would marry told me that he wished there were more women like me. or three years later at another table where the same person asked me point-blank if he was one of those guys that played the buddy system in seminary.<br />
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it's extraordinary the connection i feel to this place. it's just another Starbucks. same tile floor, same wood tables, same fragrance of espresso in the air. i've come to know and love the baristas at this location. so that is different. but if not for the many influencial memories here, i probably wouldn't feel so attached to it. there's a fondness growing even now as i sit here recalling all those emotions.<br />
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and it's all these memories that have led to a burden over the past several months. it grew very strong in the last six weeks or so. then one night, talking to my sister on the phone, i asked her a question: "do you think that if people have a desire that God did not give them, He will remove it if we ask Him to?" <br />
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i already had my own answer to that. and she spoke it as if in agreement with my unspoken answer, "yes. i do. He wants us to have His desires. He works in us to change our hearts to want what He wants." so that led to a new prayer in my heart. i pray it daily. <br />
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(if you've read any of my previous blog entries, you should know by now that i try to be open and honest about where i'm at with God; in my struggles and joys. in an effort to do that even more, i'm about to get even more transparent.)<br />
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in order to hand my heaviest burden over to God, i began to pray this: if He has not given me the desire to be married, that He would take it away. i want to be free of it and be more focused on what He has in store for me. it has been infiltrating my thoughts throughout the day and storming my dreams at night. <br />
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thankfully, this new prayer has been stilling my heart. it's not like the desire is gone. nor do i feel as though God has called me to a life of singleness...not yet at least. but it has helped clear my vision. the Holy Spirit seems to grab hold of day dreams before they start and guard my heart when i watch romantic movies or listen to lovey-dovey music. <br />
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so right now in this special coffee shop with so many caffeinated memories, i am at peace. i don't feel sad that things didn't work out with that guy from years ago. and i don't regret having those experiences. i am thankful that God is faithful to refine our hearts when we ask His help. (and even when we don't!) <br />
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Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. But resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same experiences of suffering are being accomplished by your brethren who are in the world. After your have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you. To Him be dominion forever and ever. Amen.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-46814642031791119122010-08-31T11:39:00.001-05:002010-08-31T11:40:26.997-05:00to pay or not to pay?there is a struggle that i know most people have either witnessed or experienced. i venture to say it happens so often that waiters and baristas around the world just role their eyes at the all-too-familiar exchange. when a man and woman, not yet a couple, arrives at the point where it's time to pay for their coffee, meal, mini-golf round, etc, an awkward moment also enters the scene. <br />
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here's one of the scenarios. a man and a woman approach a barista at Starbucks. the woman places her order, "i'll have a tall skinny caramel macchiato, please." (he lets her go first, like a good gentleman.)<br />
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then the awkward moment presents itself. her hand is in her purse, pulling out her wallet preparing to pay. he notices her movement and then offers, "no, i've got it!" <br />
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then the, "oh, are you sure? you don't have to..." and then his response, "um, no, it's okay. let me." (as if the time together wasn't nerve-racking enough...)<br />
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it's tough. some men get insulted when the woman doesn't ignore her manners and just let him pay. it's almost emasculating. she can be sweetly thankful with one simple, "thank you!" and then let it go. he's the leader and wants to feel more like the strong man he is. (i've got some input from "for women only" that i plan to add ASAP.)<br />
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but then, some men get turned off when a woman doesn't at least offer. that if she expects him to pay and they aren't even dating, what else does she expect of him? is she the princess type with a sense of entitlement? <br />
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one school of thought, (using this term lightly), argues that this shouldn't even be an issue; that whether you're dating that someone or just friends, the man should pay. he has the pleasure of her company and he should reflect his gratefulness by offering to cover the costs. <br />
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but then there's the other side that says, if the two are just hanging out, (i'll explain what i gather "hanging out" to mean later), why should he pay? it's a platonic situation. and sometimes it's the female that initiated meeting up. that should mean that he doesn't have to pay, right?<br />
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what do you think? where do you stand? what do you think the Bible say about situations like this? i know it may seem trivial to apply such depth to such a seemingly minor situation. but i would regret not connecting it all back to what God says about relationships.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-6843901185557761542010-08-11T16:00:00.000-05:002010-08-11T16:00:32.497-05:00dependencewhere do you go when trouble invades your day? do you call your parents, your best friend, boyfriend or girlfriend? or do you go straight to God? <br />
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i have to be honest and say that my pattern has been that i go to a human first and then cry out to God. i suppose there are a few different reasons for this. <br />
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but it's not that i don't trust God to help and guide me through life's hardships. i think this is because a human is visible/audible and can provide instant relief. whereas my Father in heaven seems so far away. i've never actually seen Him and i've never heard His voice... outloud at least. (i'm jealous of my hero's in the Bible that have heard Him speak directly to them.) <br />
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and then as a single girl, i long for a man to be there in both the awesome and the tough stuff with me. i imagine that with him simply being there, a great deal of comfort will come. because it's difficult as a single woman to ask for help. especially when we need help moving, our cars break-down or we get sick. but if we had a committed man in our lives, we wouldn't have to worry about the awkward, "i could use your help..." conversations. single women just don't know how it will be received. will he say yes out of obligation? or will he assume that we are into them?<br />
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i think about how God created us to be relational beings and that He wants us to be in relationship with others around us. in theory, the desire i have to walk through life with a man of my own is a good thing. but then there is the comment i hear from my married friends...<br />
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many of them say that even in marriage, man and wife often feel lonely. well, that's a bummer, isn't it? if that's true, what's the point of marriage? why do it if it doesn't change anything? surely, there must be other redeeming qualities. (don't get me wrong, i know there are many benefits to marriage.)<br />
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but it's hard to understand that part of marriage when my single friends and i look forward to knowing that our spouses will be there for us and with us until we leave this crazy world. so then what happens when we fail each other? what then? <br />
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then, we are forced to rely upon the best, most trustworthy person in our lives: God. <br />
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a question my church asks itself each time we meet in our villages or for all church gatherings is: how does "this" (whatever the topic may be) look in our lives? so i ask you: how do we live as though we depend on God first and foremost and the blessing of supportive human relationships is secondary? <br />
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Oswald Chambers, (my favorite to-the-point Christian writer), says, "Drink deep and full of the love of God and you will not demand the impossible of earth's loves; then the love of wife and child, of husband and friend, will grow holier and healthier and simpler and grander."<br />
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oh boy, do i wish that i lived this out well. i think at times i idolize relationship; that i desire relationship with mankind above a deeper relationship with God. i notice the times it has become an idol when i hit hardship and the first person i call is my dad or something. instead of taking a minute to call out to God for His help and comfort. <br />
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i saw evidence of this monday when i was let go from my job. instead of first bowing my head to talk to Him , (the ultimate comforter), i called my family...and got voicemails. that was a signal that God wanted to hear from me first. and it is humbling. <br />
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even though our family, significant others, and friends are huge blessings, God wants to be more involved than we realize. it's astounding how much He loves us. all of life is orchestrated by Him and we are made for "such a time as this." <br />
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we should grasp tightly - with both hands - to His love until our knuckles turn white. and that means going to him first with our fears and concerns...all our dependence on our Creator. not on someone He created.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-70312548192091079682010-05-01T15:33:00.006-05:002010-06-15T11:28:19.105-05:00insecurity is uglyit seems that the Lord wants me to discuss insecurity. it's an ugly subject. and at first, i fought it. but He kept putting it in front of me. whether it was in random conversations or via my least favorite avenue - personal experience.<br />
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i admit that i have insecurities just like anyone else. they have affected many relationships. whether i was comparing myself to my superstar sister as we grew up or dealing with the rejection from a boy i like. whatever way insecurity manifests itself in my life, it's damages may last for years if i don't address each one.<br />
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but for the purposes of this blog, let's talk about how insecurity affects dating relationships and coed friendships.<br />
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i've been reading donald miller's new book, "father fiction." it's a good read and i'd recommend it to anyone without a dad in their life; whether he wasn't present physically or emotionally. there's one chapter about dating and choosing your spouse. i appreciate how he floats between humor and harsh reality. one thing he says struck me: "<i>People are insecure already, so they don't want you to be insecure</i>." (page 124) <br />
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do you agree? i do. that's hard to say. but it's true. for women, (thanks for disney and all those princess fairytales), we are raised to look for a strong, confident man. one that will swoop in to our rescue when we need him. now, we should not expect him to look and act like prince charming. nor would we <i>honestly </i>want that. in fact, i think he would be the most boring boyfriend EVER. but the general idea is true.<br />
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in our spiritual DNA, we have a need to be rescued/redeemed from this this lost world. that's why God gave us Jesus. but it also translates into our personal relationships. so, when we have a hard day at work, our pets are sick, or our family is driving us nuts, we want a man that will be supportive and <i>try</i> to come to our rescue. so, if he doesn't believe he has what it takes to do that, how can we believe it, too?<br />
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i know that God uses relationship to reveal truth in our lives. and in many cases, our boyfriends and girlfriends get to speak encouraging truth into our lives. sometimes they have to believe we are capable of more and they have to help us see it for ourselves. i love that. but if the groundwork hasn't been laid in some capacity, it's a relationship either bound for failure or for mediocrity. and who wants that?<br />
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for men, they want women that carry themselves with confidence and don't talk poorly about themselves. have you seen that commercial for a one of the online dating websites where the poor guy sits through several different awful first dates? my favorite is the one where the girl blurts out, "there are like so many things about me that i. just. don't. like." ugh! what in the world?!?!?! it's funny because it's so close to reality.<br />
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guys, do you sometimes look a woman and think, <i>she's so pretty, too bad she doesn't think so</i>. or <i>that girl has so much going for her, why does she settle for so little</i>? that has to be so frustrating. as if she's sabotaging any new relationship because she thinks it's doomed to fail. because sooner or later, he'll discover she's not worth the trouble. <br />
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lies. all lies. and we listen to them over and over again.<br />
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i am so excited to read beth moore's new book, <i>so long insecurity; you've been a bad friend to us.</i> it speaks to the heart of women. but i bet men would receive a lot of insight into the inner workings of the female gender. i'd recommend just picking it up and thumbing through it at barnes and noble some time. sure, pretend you're looking at the writings of st. augustine or something...<br />
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here's what i'd like to hear from you: how has insecurity affected your dating relationships? have you avoiding asking someone out because you think you don't deserve her? have you pushed someone away before they had a chance to reject you?<br />
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how do you deal with it? what has the Lord taught you through it?<br />
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my insecurities led me to think about writing. so, i am thankful for realizing my faulty thinking. but i would be lying if i said i always handle the lies of the enemy the best way. he trips me up frequently. but the Lord has refuted each one. here's a little taste of God's truth about who you are:<br />
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- you have been bought with a price, therefore valuable (1 cor 6:20, 7:23)<br />
- our Creator is FOR you (ps 118: 6-7)<br />
- we are beautiful (ps 45:10, 13a)<br />
- we were personally designed by Him (ps 139:13)<br />
- we are free from guilt (john 3:16-18)<br />
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and if the one and only person that matters says stuff like this...doesn't that build you up as worthy of healthy relationship with others?<br />
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now, i'm not saying you can do whatever you want because of our assurances in Christ. what i'm saying is that listening to the enemy's lies will disrupt your relationships. we all have things we need to work on. and we should always seek the Lord's help to work through them for His glory. but if you wait until you're perfect to enter into a dating relationship...you may never get married!<br />
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with all our faults, with all our imperfections...somehow the Lord brings His children together in marriage every day. that's the hope i have to cling to!Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-78693702335558574502010-03-31T12:14:00.001-05:002010-04-10T17:35:50.809-05:00independence: friend or foe?a friend sent me a message on facebook that sparked thought about independence. she said the following:<br />
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"I remember reading a list from a book on your blog and one of the things mentioned money and men feeling the need to be the provider. I found that being independent made most guys feel uncomfortable and also caused them to not want to "do" anything "for" me, but with an attitude. As if they were silently saying, oh you can handle everything on your own, you don't need me. Me and another independent girlfriend both had this issue and starting talking about being independent by choice and by default..." <br />
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that got me thinking...is independence admirable or undesirable? does it <i>have</i> to be one or the other? since then i've asked this question of a few close folks in my life. <br />
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the single women i asked said that they agree with my friend's statement. they have felt penalized for trying to get and keep their lives in order. we've seen women who have the damsel-in-distress personality find love. but it seems like many more responsible women get overlooked or ignored because to some men, it looks like they don't need a man in their lives. but do women that are clearly in need of men in their lives <i>really</i> get more attention?<br />
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let me break this down for the men, (and women that don't identify). <br />
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the longer a woman stays single, the more responsibility she must take on. paying her bills, buying a car, (in my case, replacing a car after a stripper hits it on her way home from work at 3 am), getting a pet, buying a home, taking vacations, caring for sick parents and grandparents, planning for retirement, investing...the list goes on and on. that kind of woman has to daily balance work and who-knows-what-else. that means she's got a system and must maintain it so that her whole world doesn't fall apart. <br />
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you see, it's not that she doesn't need a companion in her life. it's just that no one has asked or taken the opportunity to figure that out. <br />
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women can't just say that when she first meets a man. could you imagine the fear it would strike in the heart of a dude if she were to say, "hey, nice to meet you. just so you know, i'm a highly organized hard-worker who has a lot on her plate. i'd love it if you would step in and be the man i've been waiting for so that i don't have to do all this on my own. i do need you, (or someone like you), to be a part of my organized chaos. when can you start?" <br />
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that, along with, "how many kids do you want?" "what's your stance on premarital sex?" "what's your relationship with your mom and dad like?" are highly inappropriate for first dates, right? <br />
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so how does a woman communicate that to someone when some guys make assumptions and never give her a chance? <br />
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a single male friend offered his opinion, too. he said that a responsible woman isn't a turn-off. but a controlling one is. yes. i definitely agree there. if, (once in a relationship), the chica cannot let her boyfriend serve her and lead them in the relationship, then that is a huge problem and stems back with submission. (yes, that dirty, ugly word that feminists want banned from the dictionary. but stay with me. the biblical definition of submission is not a woman that plays the doormat or doily-wearing church mouse.) a woman that cannot allow her man to lead the relationship needs to deal with that. <br />
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a married female friend said that some men in relationships take that independence for granted and let their woman do it all because he knows she can. that is a lazy man that should be avoided! in my opinion, that relationship will never be as fulfilling as it could be. in fact, i venture to say that it barely resembles the church and our relationship with God. <br />
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but i digress...<br />
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a married male friend said that it's a sign of immaturity if a guy doesn't pursue a woman he likes just because it <i>looks</i> like he doesn't have anything to offer her...that she's got "it" all together. he said that when he met his wife, he appreciated that she could take care of things if he weren't around all the time but would miss him while he was gone. is that true for most men? is that the kind of women mature men look for? <br />
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here's where i need your input: what do you think of independence in single women? do you identify with the i-get-ignored feelings? do you think all this is an excuse/cop-out controlling women use to make themselves feel better? is independence a turn-off for single men? Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-7826888490606940832010-03-22T23:14:00.000-05:002010-03-22T23:14:54.291-05:00perspectiveIn case you didn't know this, I sell homes for a home builder. Even though my title is a sales counselor. I believe the biggest part of my job is the latter part of the title: counselor. And that means listening A LOT. Granted, buying a home is a big deal and it's even bigger when you're building it. So it's understandable to need someone to walk with folks through the process and help keep them calm. <br />
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Many times, I am, (whether consciously or unconsciously), invited into the lives of my homeowners. I get to hear about their families, play with their kids, talk about spiritual things, and listen when they are stressed out about different parts of their lives and how it affects their feelings toward their new home. <br />
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Today was no different. There is a very sweet woman building a home with us. This home means a lot to her and you could say it's purchase is bitter sweet. You see, she is a widow. Her husband was killed maliciously in an armed robbery...executioner style. Imagine the horror if you were her. To hear that news...I hope I never know what that feels like. <br />
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But what was special about today's visit to the model home was her thoughtful words to me. Despite her nervousness about building a home and doing it all alone, she says, "I am praying for you to find the right man. I had a date this weekend and I know how hard it is out there. And I just really think you deserve someone special."<br />
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She had just said, (with tears in her eyes), that this home is the home she and her husband had planned to buy together. It made me cry, too! But in the midst of her grief and stress of moving twice and building a home, she is considerate of me. It humbled me. Her genuine words of encouragement meant so much to me right now.<br />
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This is because I've wrapped up my online dating experience. It taught me a lot about what I want and who I am. And I'm glad I did it. But I also know that it's time to end that experience. I am exactly where I need to be: the right job, the right church, the right city. And I believe that God doesn't need me to be in a huge church to "increase my odds." Rather, He needs me to be obedient for His kingdom. And all the other things will be added to it when it's time. <br />
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Because I am in the right job today, this sweet woman encouraged me in a way none of my other homeowners could have because of her specific life situation. I don't think I'll ever forget that.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-5343918570177508272010-03-07T23:26:00.000-06:002010-03-07T23:26:10.344-06:00the purest of truth<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><sup id="en-NASB-29467"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I've been reading Colossians 1 this week. I love the poetry and honesty of it. I believe it expresses the purest of truth in life: Christ is the physical representation of God, savior of the world, the head of the church, and in Him I am made holy. </span></sup></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><sup id="en-NASB-29467"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I was drawn to this passage because I needed to stop and remember why I write. And why relationships are worth the effort. You see, the world says dating should be exciting. However, I'm exhausted! It's hard work but I know it's worth it. And I needed a reminder of that.</span></sup></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><sup id="en-NASB-29467"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">The "for in Him all things hold together..." phrase struck me. Christ is Who creates relationships and keeps them together. It's when we forget that, that we mess it up. </span></sup></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
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</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><sup id="en-NASB-29475">9</sup>For this reason also, since the day we heard of it, we have not ceased to pray for you and to ask that you may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, <sup id="en-NASB-29476">10</sup>so that you will walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, to please Him in all respects, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God; <sup id="en-NASB-29477">11</sup>strengthened with all power, according to His glorious might, for the attaining of all steadfastness and patience; joyously <sup id="en-NASB-29478">12</sup>giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified us to share in the inheritance of the saints in Light. <sup id="en-NASB-29479"></sup><sup id="en-NASB-29479"> </sup></i></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><sup id="en-NASB-29479">13</sup>For He rescued us from the domain of darkness, and transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved Son, <sup id="en-NASB-29480">14</sup>in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins. <sup id="en-NASB-29481">15</sup>He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation. <sup id="en-NASB-29482">16</sup>For by Him all things were created, both in the heavens and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities--all things have been created through Him and for Him. <sup id="en-NASB-29483">17</sup>He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together. <sup id="en-NASB-29484">18</sup>He is also head of the body, the church; and He is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, so that He Himself will come to have first place in everything. <sup id="en-NASB-29485">19</sup>For it was the Father's good pleasure for all the fullness to dwell in Him, <sup id="en-NASB-29486">20</sup>and through Him to reconcile all things to Himself, having made peace through the blood of His cross; through Him, I say, whether things on earth or things in heaven. <sup id="en-NASB-29487">21</sup>And although you were formerly alienated and hostile in mind, engaged in evil deeds, <sup id="en-NASB-29488">22</sup>yet He has now reconciled you in His fleshly body through death, in order to present you before Him holy and blameless and beyond reproach--<sup id="en-NASB-29489">23</sup>if indeed you continue in the faith firmly established and steadfast, and not moved away from the hope of the gospel that you have heard, which was proclaimed in all creation under heaven, and of which I, Paul, was made a minister.<sup id="en-NASB-29490"> </sup></i></div>Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-36865469189543963832010-02-25T21:06:00.000-06:002010-02-25T21:06:19.095-06:00boundaries in servicehere's a question that i've struggled with most of my life: how do we sacrificially serve each other and yet keep healthy boundaries as unmarried Christians? and what are those boundaries? is there biblical precedent for it?<br />
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the bible repeatedly tells us to serve each other beyond our conveniences; to love each other without hesitation as Christ does. if He is our perfect example of unconditional love, what does that mean for those of us with less definable relationship statuses. now, i know that the lines can get blurry for married folks, too. and unfortunately, i've seen many people get caught up in that and really screw up their lives and ministry. <br />
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but since i'm single, i am more interested in how to answer this question in regards to other single people. i believe that the Lord is working in my life to reveal to me how He wants me to behave. but i'd love to get your feedback. God brought this to mind today because of something i just read. <br />
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i'm a big fan of oswald chambers and his <i>My Utmost for His Highest</i> study. today he writes in regards to 2 corinthians 12:15, "though the more abundantly i love you, the less i be loved." He explains that Paul sees his life as "I do not care with what extravagance I spend myself, and i will do it gladly." <br />
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that got me thinking, how does this translate to me and how i "spend myself" for other single men in my life? it's easy to love the women around me without there being a misunderstanding of my intentions. i can tell a woman that i love them and they won't freak out and think i'm <i>in</i> love with them! but the unwed dudes in my life most certainly could! (and with good reason if they don't know me and my intentions.) <br />
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i've run into situations in my life that even though my acts of service were purely because i care about them, someone will inevitably start to believe i have feelings for them. and other times, i <i>have</i> had to evaluate my intentions: am i doing this because they are my brother or more because i <i>do</i> have feelings for them? that's when i recognize my fault in it. <br />
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but no matter what, i get frustrated that i can't serve my male counterparts the same way i can the women. does anyone else struggle with this? (i have a feeling i'm not alone in this.) i know some very servant-minded single men that have helped me and many other women move. but i'll bet you a u-haul that some of those women have and do start to think that their act of service meant more than it did. <br />
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oswald, (yep, we're on a first name basis), also writes, "natural love expects some return, but Paul says - i do not care whether you love me or not, i am willing to destitute myself completely, not merely for your sakes, but that i may get you to God." <br />
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that being said, how can we "destitute" ourselves in order to bring our single brothers and sisters to Christ? <br />
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it's hard enough when their <i>is</i> a definition to a relationship. but in the friendship/not dating relationship, what is appropriate service? is it wise to go to such extremes for our brothers and sisters? <br />
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Christ did.... <br />
Paul did.... <br />
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perhaps it simply starts with our intentions. if we set it in our hearts to simply love our family as just that, <i>family</i>, i believe it would simplify so much. and if we do not expect a "return" on our efforts to serve them, there won't be much room for disappointment, right?<br />
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here's where it gets tricky for me: what about when you feel that folks take you for granted. for instance, i believe there have been male friends in my life that have taken my emotional support and acts of kindness for granted. not that i expected anything in return. but there must come a point when that man decides who he will marry, (at least its more likely than not that a majority of us will be married), and therefore the person he supports and supports him is designated with a wedding ring. <br />
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so if any of us is biding our time with someone of the opposite sex outside of the context of a dating relationship, isn't that a form of fraud? are we using their service to us as an in-the-meantime significant other? it's much easier for me to know how to handle each friendship when i know exactly what role i play in their life. but since men and women don't always think the same, (shocking, right?), we can't expect each other to know when we are defrauding them. <br />
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the Lord and i have been talking about this for a long time. all i can say is thank goodness God offers mercy and grace! i am such a work in progress. but at least <i>progressive</i>!<br />
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talk to me! give me your thoughts on this. it may be very clear to other folks. but for those of us that need a little help...share the wealth!Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-41410154120789594582010-02-18T12:48:00.000-06:002010-02-18T12:48:50.706-06:00adventures in datingi'm at a strange place in life. (but who isn't?) i work in the building industry during one of the most frightening economical times our country has seen in 30 years. i'm a part of a burgeoning new church in which i have the opportunity to lead with truly gifted people. there are wonderful people in my life that i love to love. and my writing project takes time as i work through what the Lord is teaching me. <br />
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somewhere in the midst of all this, i am still hoping to meet the man i will marry someday. it's weird because in all other aspects of my life, i must do the pursuing. but in this one area, it doesn't work that way. don't get me wrong, i've tried being the pursuer. and it NEVER works out. EVER. <br />
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but how do i flip the switch from the pursuit after spending over 90% of my time doing just that? <br />
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i've been on a few dates the past couple weeks. it's been fun! but at the same time exhausting. i don't know how people do this well. before each date, i have to psych myself up and be hopeful for a fun time with a (hopefully) normal guy. <br />
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women will agree with me when i say it takes a lot of effort to get yourself looking just right before a date. but then add to the mix the idea of a blind date or meeting someone you've met through eharmony or match.com. <br />
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okay, i confess that i've joined both those websites as an experiment. and it's a bizarre experience to say the least. both have yielded such different results. eharmony: major let down. not one of those matches seems the right fit for me...even though i answered a MULTITUDE of questions in the profile questions.<br />
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match.com has been more productive. i've decided that it's because the men have an opportunity to search for the kind of woman they'd like to be with. and with that comes the natural progression of man pursuing the woman. instead of the same dynamic i see in so many churches: men presented with many available women and the women compete for the attention of the men. at least that's what you see in larger churches with singles ministries. this passive approach isn't working well. <br />
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what i'm finding in my 29th year as a single, Christian woman, is that it's harder to find someone that values abstinence and doesn't push the envelope physically. yes, all things are permissible...but not all beneficial. as a church, i think we've done a poor job helping young adults in this area. we need to encourage folks to not prolong adolescence and find a mate. (that is if you want to be married.) then, the physical aspect that is already too tempting, isn't considered more acceptable as we get older. (but this is a whole other topic...)<br />
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that's when online sites are helpful to folks that are really interested in finding the right person. so, even though nothing's really panned-out yet, at least i've met some neat men and learned more about what i want and who i am. <br />
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i had a friend say to me last night, "play on, playa." (a line from the totally awesome 90s hit, "no diggity".) even though i don't want to appear a "playa", i have the opportunity to learn the appropriate level of expectations after just one or two dates. these dating sights create the opportunity to date several people at one time. <br />
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but what i've found to be most interesting, is the increase in coupled/married friends suddenly suggesting that i be set up with their single friends. this is a pretty new experience for me. in fact, i used to wonder why they didn't do this before. so, i think the timing of it is pretty interesting: just when i've decided to make myself available through online dating services. perhaps it has something to do with being willing to open myself up to new opportunities? or maybe i'm at the place God wants for me so that the conditions are right to meet my future love?<br />
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either way, i'm encouraged to know that good guys are out there and they will treat me with kindness and respect. what a blessing! after all, it's easy to become jaded and cynical in a world of imperfect people. i was starting to grow more and more frustrated with single men in my age group. so, the Lord, (like always), is redeeming those worldly assumptions and changing my heart toward more hopefulness and less cynicism. Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-92105250268641250592010-01-16T01:33:00.000-06:002010-01-16T01:33:11.651-06:00some honesty...I feel a need to come clean and just be open and honest. Not that I'm usually dishonest...it's just that I started blogging to talk about what other people are saying about relationships and to get your feedback. <br />
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But tonight........tonight there's a different purpose to my writing. <br />
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I write to you tonight from a comfy bed in the Residence Inn. I accidentally brought my laptop along when I forgot to take it into my house before I left for the hotel. But I now think that part of my forgetfulness wasn't really by mistake. I believe that the Lord wanted me to write tonight; knowing what I would be feeling at this very moment. <br />
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Here I am on a leaders retreat for The City Church. I am so thrilled to be a part of this church family! I love everyone in it. And I'm so blessed to know that they feel I am qualified, (thanks to Jesus), to lead a village. In our first session we talked about why The City exists, what the Gospel means and how it translates in to our lives and our identity. <br />
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Needless to say, it's been a great encouragement already! <br />
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Yet......<br />
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I sit here WIDE awake. Like the movie "Sleepless in Seattle," I can't seem to stop thinking about what I'm missing and therefore preventing a decent night's sleep. No, I've not lost the love of my life. I don't even know who he is! And yet, I miss him. <br />
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I'm ashamed to say that although I am sure that the Lord has given me everything I need for this day and will provide everything I need for the next, I still long for more. I want to find the man that the Lord has chosen as my husband. I want to begin our life together, to serve him, love him on a much deeper level than anyone else on earth!<br />
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I sure wish that I didn't struggle with this and that I could go about this leadership training without this distraction hanging around. And even though the Lord and I have taken great strides in this area of my life. Tonight I feel weak and brokenhearted. <br />
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As I sat around the round-ish table this evening surrounded with wonderful, godly people, I felt different and alone. I could hear the enemy telling me, "Look at all these couples. THEY can lead a group. But you? You're just one person! How are you adequate for this job?" His lies sunk in deeper and deeper until just a few minutes ago when tears came pouring out of my sleepless eyes. <br />
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This is spiritual warfare; no doubt about it. I claim Jesus' cleansing blood all over me and the enemy will not be victorious. But as the Lord soothes the ache and quiets my fears, tonight I pray. And I write. <br />
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My mind WILL be transformed.<br />
I will NOT be conformed to this world.<br />
He Who began a good work in me is faithful to complete it.<br />
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But for tonight............tonight I confess that I ache for something that the Lord does not want to give yet. And I await eagerly for the new, merciful morning.Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-6245065499593299352010-01-03T13:50:00.000-06:002010-01-03T13:50:04.380-06:00"For Women Only" Part III<!--StartFragment--> <br />
<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Feldhahn characterizes respect is essential in a man's life. And there are different situations that he needs respect:</span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Over the years, I've been blessed to watch many couples relate to each other. And even though I've not had much experience in committed dating relationships and especially with marriage, I agree with Feldhahn. Her summary is pretty accurate. And I also believe that we see a reflection of how God expects us to respect and honor Him in that list. God makes this quite clear throughout the Bible.</span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Exodus 20 presents the 10 commandments. In it we read God's desire/expectation to be respected. Ephesians 5:22-24, (feminists cringe at this passage), outlines God's intention for wives to respect their husbands, <i>"Wives be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, as Christ also is the head of the church, He himself being the Savior of the body. But as the church is subject to Christ, so also the wives ought to be to their husbands in everything."</i></span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Do you think that since Christ is the head of the church and is to be respected and honored and then since He set husbands as the leader of the household, man's desire/need for respect started with that mandate? Not necessarily all the sudden in Ephesians. But at the very beginning of man? OR at "the curse", (when sin entered the world), discussed in a previous post?</span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">This is an interesting statement and one I've been aware of for some time. And it's a growing issue. I've been single for 29 years. And I've been a part of a single/unmarried group of folks since college. There are countless men I've known that seen to avoid asking someone out because they are too afraid of the risk. </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">The new thing is to hide behind lame text messages. Nothing says to a woman, "I'm not sure you're worth the risk," like a text message pseudo-relationship. It's taken many frustrating months since texting became so popular to figure this out. </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Maybe the guy is legitimately interested. But only texting and not following through with a phone call and/or date sends the message he's just not that into her. So, maybe because they want someone to believe in them so much that the fear of rejection is more compelling the opportunity to meet the woman of their dreams. </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">To this I say get off the lame bus! Life is full of risk and finding the person you will spend the rest of your life with, the woman who may have your children, the best friend that will serve the Lord along your side is completely worth the risk.</span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">We women need to be gentle to these guys when they do step out of their comfort zone. But I will say this, (and Dr. Phil agrees with me. Or maybe it's I who agrees with him? You can be the judge.), if men show a woman something worthy of respect, she will give them the respect they seek! Women my age seem to want a man they can believe in and trust. So in general, men are "innocent until proven guilty." </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>"He who pursues righteousness and loyaly finds life, righteousness and honor." Proverbs 21:21</i></span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">But men, PLEASE, avoid women at are natural pessimists and/or hyper-critical. It would be a painful relationship and you'll feel less and less satisfied. And this type of woman doesn't truly believe in your capabilities. </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>"An excellent wife is the crown of her husband, but she who shames him is like rottenness in his bones." Proverbs 12:4</i></span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>"It is better to live in a corner of a roof than in a house shared with a contentious woman." Proverbs 21:9</i></span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Look for a woman that is a natural encourager. She wants to believe in you.</span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">"Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones." Proverbs 16:24</span></span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">“Let us accept this call to maturity and receive this invitation for our generation to become the strong, gentle, godly women our men need. If we are willing to be molded by His hands, the Lord will shower us, our men, and our relationships with abundance. That is the way He works. He made us for each other. He is the Author of Love.” (page 178)</span></i><o:p></o:p><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Feldhahn's statement is powerful. I love that she equates strength, gentleness and godliness with maturity. I've heard others say the gist of this equation. But I've not heard it put so well and so clearly! </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">It doesn't say maturity in relationships is exemplified in our level of domestication or activity in the church. It gives simple adjectives, (or "adjetevs" the way my high school english teacher pronounces it), to describe a mature woman. And in turn we get to receive and share the blessings of being this kind of woman. </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Daily, I am reminded of how wonderful God is. And the opportunity to learn and enjoy blessings because of the tough lessons we endure is something I don't appreciate enough. And as He heaps grace-upon-grace in our lives, we get to share that grace with others. It's beautiful, don't you think? </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I'm reminded of what we find in Romans 8:37, "But in all these things, (tribulation, distress, persecution, famine, nakedness, peril or sword), we OVERWHELMINGLY conquer through Him that loved us." </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">And Oswald Chambers said, "Let circumstances bring you where they will, keep drawing on the grace of God in every conceivable condition you may be in." </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I am encouraged by what these three authors know: </span><br />
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</div><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">The tough things we learn now and in the future will not overcome us! So learning to love each other, to sacrifice for each other, to be more like Christ...it's all possible because of Christ.</span> <!--EndFragment-->Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-78575607750709243882009-12-30T16:15:00.004-06:002009-12-30T23:41:26.046-06:00"For Women Only" Part IIIn regards to the previous post, the Bible has something to say about what Ms. Feldhahn wrote. <br />
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First, in Genesis 3, we read the story of man's fall into sin and what that means to the rest of us as descendants of Adam and Eve. They figure out they are naked and for the first time decide it's best to hide from God in their shame. Even though God already knows what they have done yet being the relational God that He is, He asks them, "What is this that you have done?" Then God, because He is just and loves us, proceeds with the punishment for their sin. This punishment is carried down through generations...all the way to us. <br />
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To Eve, God says, "I will greatly multiply you pain in childbirth, in pain you will bring forth children;Yet your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you." (Genesis 3:16)<br />
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To Adam, God says, "Because you have listened to the voice of your wife, and have eaten from the tree about which I commanded you saying, 'You shall not eat from it'; Cursed is the ground because of you; in toil you will eat of it all the days of your life. Both thorns and thistles it shall grow for you; and you will eat the plants of the field; by the sweat of your face you will eat bread, till you return to the ground, because from it you were taken; for you are dust and to dust you shall return."<br />
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Since <i>For Women Only</i> is talking about men, I'm focusing on Adam. We see that <i><b>number 3</b></i> in Feldhahn's list pertains directly to this passage. Men will always feel the need to provide. This is an effect of the fall of man. I also venture to say that the curse on women, "your desire will be for your husband," correlates with <b><i>number 1</i></b> on the list: men need respect. Perhaps God made women desire men to fulfill man's need for respect? <br />
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2 Samuel 11 tells the story of the great King David. Even though he was a "man after God's own heart," he too was susceptable to visual temptation. He saw Bathsheba, another man's wife, bathing one night and decided to "lay with her." They even had a child as a result of his sin. This supports Feldhahn's claim that men are visual, (<i><b>number 5</b></i>.) <br />
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What about sex? 1 Corinthians 7 talks about this act of love in marriage. Paul writes saying that men shouldn't touch women unless she is his wife. And men and women are to practice monogamy. But it doesn't mention how sex contributes to a man's well-being, (<b><i>number 4</i></b>.) But it gives the perameters for a healthy sex life for marriage. Song of Solomon cherishes sex between husband and wife. The man is uplifted and adored by his mate.<br />
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"Like an apple tree among the trees of the forest, so is my beloved among the young men. In his shade I took great delight and sat down, and his fruit is sweet to my taste." (Song of Solomon 2:3) "His mouth is full of sweetness. And he is wholly desirable. This is my beloved and this is my friend..." (Song of Solomon 5:16)<br />
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The entire book of Song of Solomon is a melodious rejoicing of a woman over her man and the man for his woman. It may not say specifically say that the man felt more confident because of all the sex he was having. But all her loving, (somewhat explicit), words imply that her adoration translated into physical intimacy. And his responses to her were even more powerful words of affirmation and love.<br />
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I'm sure there are many other parts of the Bible that speak to the generalities Ms. Feldhahn makes. But this is where I'll stop today. There are other things to talk about!Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-92230615404339545682009-12-28T22:07:00.001-06:002009-12-30T15:15:06.250-06:00"For Women Only: What You Need to Know About the Inner Lives of Men"<i>By Shaunti Feldhahn</i><br />
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Ms. Feldhahn writes to women in <i>For Women Only</i>. (Obviously.) It is divided into 9 chapters ranging from how she arrived at this topic, a man's need for respect, his need to provide, sex, and even what men wish you knew about them. <br />
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A male friend of mine told me I should read this book and has referenced it on conversations. I figure that if he identifies with it's notions, it's worth checking out. I'll post this for now and add more tomorrow.<br />
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She proposes a set of principles that generally apply to men. I wonder how many of you agree with her findings. <br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 3.5in; text-indent: -3.5in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><i>1. Men Need Respect: Men would rather feel unloved than inadequate and disrespected</i><i><o:p></o:p></i></span><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 3.5in; text-indent: -3.5in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><i>2. Men are insecure: Despite their “in control” exterior, men often feel like imposters and are insecure that their inadequacies will be discovered</i><i><o:p></o:p></i></span><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 3.5in; text-indent: -3.5in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><i>3. Men are providers: Even if you personally made enough income to support the family’s lifestyle, it would make no difference to the mental burden he feels to provide</i><i><o:p></o:p></i></span><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 3.5in; text-indent: -3.5in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><i>4. Men want more sex: Your sexual desire for your husband profoundly affects this sense of well-being and confidence in all areas of life</i><i><o:p></o:p></i></span><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 3.5in; text-indent: -3.5in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><i>5. Men are visual: Even happily married men struggle with being pulled toward live and recollected images of other women</i><i><o:p></o:p></i></span><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 3.5in; text-indent: -3.5in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><i>6. Men are unromantic clods: Actually, most men enjoy romance (sometimes in different ways) and want to be romantic – but hesitate because they doubt they can succeed</i><i><o:p></o:p></i></span><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 3.5in; text-indent: -3.5in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><i>7. Men care about appearance: You don’t need to be a size 3, but your man does need to see you making and effort to take care of yourself – and he will take on significant cost or inconvenience in order to support you</i><i><o:p></o:p></i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Do you agree with Ms. Feldhahn? </span><br />
</div>Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7040060455189065696.post-3419199965530264952009-12-25T12:26:00.000-06:002009-12-25T12:26:44.545-06:00getting startedfor a few years, i've been reading books that have to do with dating and relationships. many of my unmarried friends have, too. but what i've found is that there's not one single book that gives the magic formula for how to be happy and content in singleness. <br />
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as a christian, it's even more challenging. how do we pursue a deeper relationship with God, not give in to what the rest of the world says is okay, and still hope that our future husband/wife is out there somewhere?<br />
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i'd like to see if i can find some answers. for the past year, i've been reading loads of books, watching movies/tv and asking friends their opinions... and taking notes. i'm going to do a blogger's version of book reviews to help the process. <br />
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maybe it'll encourage you. maybe it'll scare you. but what i DO know is that God has responses to every opinion. <br />
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i've been asking God what He thinks of what these authors say. and i'll report His answers in the blog, too. after all, His is the only opinion that matters!<br />
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let's get started!Mandyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13562258457079442000noreply@blogger.com2